Some help plis (T^T)

Okay so im not really sure if I am planning on following through with this whole "trans-masc" thing, I've always been questioning myself anyways. 

But a few days ago, we had a school program where we had to choose a historical play for each language that was regional and international for a linguistic program we have every year. And my group got French. (it was a weird ass historical French play about a man who is an alcoholic and a domestic abuser who does medical malpractice) but I digress. For the play, most of us had to draw on a fake mustache with makeup since most of our characters were male, and genuinely for the first time. It fet like i felt good about myself in that (masculine) way. A few of my classmates were saying it looked natural and one of them even said "you should've just been born as a boy" and I haven't been able to forget about it. I've heard many people say that I would've been better if I was a born as a guy (even family members) but this time it felt different. And now I've been thinking about gender alot more, and its fucking scary since my family is extremely religious. The situation i am currently in would either end with me getting in family dispute or a legal one with the laws in the place i am currently living in. 

Alot of yapping, i know but I just wanted to know if anyone has experience with a situation like this and if they actually got out? since right now it seems impossible.

(Also sorry for any possible grammar or spelling mistakes)