hhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i HATE WEEKENDS WHERE I CANT DO ANYTHING

why tf do my parents js NOT do anything with their kids.. like ik ur tired n all but not being able to cook is just crazy my guy 

anyways.. um., I made kandi n stuff.. plus I went through another spiraling thing idrk what they're called and it ended in me abusing Tylenol again 0w0 the nap was great too (yeah if you take enough Tylenol you "mellow out" where you just get comfy and wanna do nothing and maybe even sleep sometimes lol)

oh yeahh my gma got her throat surgery todayyy..! she has an 'autoimmune disease' where she cant eat some foods and it can make her food pipe shut itself and she'll choke on her food. yeah apparently the doctor she went to thought it was a syndrome called OEO, where if she drinks milk then it'll cause flare up reactions of this. personally I don't think it is this, I believe it is something called PNP, a disease (?) where her body is attacking her digestive tract to make it where she cant eat, causing blisters in her mouth, and on her skin in flare ups (in which all these symptoms apply). In PNP, though, there's usually a tumor somewhere, sometimes hidden, and ur body tries making you notice it because you cant feel pain from these tumors. she's had cancer before and hers was possible to stay dormant for a bit so in conclusion I srsly think she has this lolz

buutt I think tmrw I might try to un mat my hair since I just have a huge clump of fuzz on my scalp atp. atleast it is something to do.. 

oh fuck I forgot mid terms were this week.. yeah, at my school we have reading as a grade.. like actual book reading. we take tests on them as part of our grade, and most of my class hasn't read finished any books, nor taken tests on any. luckily my book is on WWII so I binge read it a lot and I have like 40 pages left so I can prob binge it 2nite and finish it.. maybe clean my room too?

now that I think of it I need to make my siblings' unfinished projects and make them pay for it. I like doing this to them because I think its funny and they think it is some sort of enactment of kindness on my end. like why you think that I hate you don't ever think I forgive you for ur actions b.. (targeted to one of my siblings lol)...yeah I'm not giving too much detail abt that but long story short he was obsessive over me when I was in 3nd grade and he was in 1st-2nd I think.. so he assaulted me... yeah I never got help for it either 

ah yeah therapy story I've never mentioned it! todays the day ig.. so, when my phone was taken away, my mom wanted to call me to clear up things with me, so we called and she offered therapy to me. I accepted, as one would if you were ever in my situation, but she never gave it to me. she offered it in June this year, its early september, and I hevent went once. so my issues have never seen the light of day. which you can tell how it kinda made me (I have friends with s/h addictions. I encourage them to indulge in it. that's what I mean by 'how it made me') 

I wish I had literally anything to do rn.. I mean maybe move my NHD sources to my school Chromebook? there's something ig... but I want a whole list of stuff to do tonight because I went to sleep and woke up at 8pm after taking 5 tylenol so I'm really hyper and awake now!! ,'-'_-)o

if I cant make a list of things to do then I'll pop 5 more Tylenol and go to sleep ig.. I mean that 2 above how many I should take in a day but I've waited 6 hours I'm fine atp right

well have fun ik no ones reading this but just have fun... I'm gonna either make a new entry or edit this one with what I did or want to do tmrw ig