3AM Morning [Blog-Diary]

Right now, I'm sitting at my window sill with some tea, watching a relay race happening down at the rec field. Ruby's watching as well.

I've been up since around 3 AM. Despite how hard I try to get a decent amount of sleep, my body always betrays me. I went to bed around 8 after taking multiple sleep aids, but of course I don't sleep through the whole night. Not to mention that I'm pretty sure I tossed and turned the whole time anyways. I guess this means I'm back to sleep medication roulette next time I meet with my psych... Let's see if number 7 is the lucky winner that finally makes me sleep in under an hour.

Either way, since I was up, I doddled around for a bit. Watching some videos, still hoping I could get back to sleep. Of course, I did not, and I was hungry, so I decided to go cook breakfast.

I actually went out and used the kitchen for the first time in a few weeks. Ever since dad got admitted to the hospital, I've not really had the energy to cook breakfast. I ended up frying some frozen shredded potatoes and making some scrambled eggs with creamy cheese in 'em. It was pretty good! Also made some tea while eating- chamomile despite my exhaustion. I've learned not to even try with caffine and my ADHD meds at the same time. It doesn't keep me awake, and the only affect it has on me is giving me anxiety attacks. They don't mix.

I'm still sleepy, despite taking yesterday as a complete rest day. I didn't leave the dorm at all. I think it helped a bit. 

Hopefully I'll get some decent work done today- or at least get my darned online courses back. I'm dreading the email chains and meetings and phonecalls I'm gonna have to make. Screw you, Pearson, for retracting like 200 dollars worth of online materials I paid out of pocket for. Tempted to go 'Karen mode' to see if I can guilt some refund out of them for the grief and stress it's causing me. I already have to deal with being behind because of this family emergancy, and now my textbooks just vanish for no reason. Auuuuugh...