LIFE UPDATE

Hey readers,

I hope you’re all doing great and living the life you want. It’s been a very long time since I last wrote anything here, but here I am again.

As far back as I can remember, I’ve always struggled with doomscrolling and letting social media rot my brain with nonsense. Unfortunately, it still does even with the time limits I’ve set for myself. Anyway, it’s fall, and who doesn’t love hot chocolate or coffee on a cozy rainy morning?

Even though this year isn’t over yet, it has already taught me so many lessons I hope I’ll never forget. It’s been filled with patience, hard work, and acceptance.

Since I was a kid, I wanted to be a doctor, I thought it was the perfect path (and honestly, it still is). After high school, I had to choose a career to pursue professionally- something I enjoyed. In my country, the system requires you to pass an entrance exam, and only those with high rankings can study fields like medicine, engineering, or economics. Each field has its own exam, of course.

With the luck I had, I ended up in engineering knowing full well that my dream of becoming a doctor was crushed because I didn’t do well enough on the entrance exam. It was hard to accept. I felt defeated, but time does its job. They say things eventually fall into place.

I faced a huge dilemma with myself. Was engineering what I really wanted? Or was I just settling? I didn’t know what to do. It was a dark period, I was depressed and hated myself. I slept constantly, hoping things would somehow get better and that my heart would stop aching. Around that time, I also lost a very dear person, which only made everything heavier.

I hated myself to the point where old, forgotten traumas resurfaced- things I never thought I’d talk about, like a relationship that ended badly. I was desperate to seek help from a therapist or psychologist. My pain even showed physically: severe breakouts, panic attacks, insomnia, and other symptoms of mental illness.

Eventually, time passed, and I sat with myself. I thought: What can I do to change this misery? Then I found the answer...to try again. I told myself, Who am I to give up on something so important? If a year or two passes, does it really matter in the long run once I achieve my goal?

So, Life Plan 101: I want to be a doctor. How do I get there? Simple  I retake the entrance exam. But this time, I study my heart out, leaving no chance for failure. That’s exactly what I did. I worked hard, studied like never before, and guess what? I did it. I got in. I finally made it while also keeping up with my engineering year and working on my mental health.

I’m sharing my story with you as a reminder: never give up. No matter how long it takes, the result is what truly matters.

Diamonds are built under pressure, DIVAS

If you enjoy this type of blog or want deeper insights, let me know in the comments.

Stay safe, readers. Love you all.

XOXO,
Your friend, Ilham