America is becoming an evil evil place

Violence is becoming commonplace. as much as I rejoice the death of a fascist, its frightening to see how increasingly common gun violence is becoming. no one is kind anymore. people are greedy and angry and everyone in this country hates each other. I have never witnessed such an intense divide before. I can't even stand being around half of my extended family members because their beliefs are so radically different from mine that our morals are incompatible. despite the fact that the majority of the country voted for the president, it seems that the majority of the country hates him with a fiery passion. the rich people in this country are so so rich, and so so evil, that they seem barely human anymore. its like something out of a cartoon. our country is completely, cleanly divided because the rich pit us against our fellow working class. unfortunately, this is too big a picture for most people to grasp, and ultimately, we just kill each other instead of the people who deserve it. 

I am truly, unendingly grateful for everything I have, but there are despicable creatures here, and its scary. I wish guns would go away. I wish people here weren't so emotionally turbulent and mentally ill. everyone is on drugs all the time because everyone is poor and miserable because our government hates us and our entire lives revolve around consuming and mindless spending and money money money. I hate money. I hate guns. I hate ignorance and apathy. I wish people were kind. I wish people cared about the earth. I wish people cared about anything. I don't want to be here anymore. I want the world to be better. I want America to be better, but it only seems to get worse with every year that passes. nothing ever seems to change. if you vote, it means nothing. if you protest, you are shot. if you retaliate, you are shot and condemned. 

there are evil pedophiles running this country, and yet we are the bad ones? we are bad for disrespecting law enforcement? we are bad for demanding better rights? we are bad for exercising free will? we are bad for using preferred bathrooms? we are bad for speaking out against genocide? we are bad for rejoicing the death of empirical serial killers like Brian Thompson? or supporters of hate and violence like Charlie Kirk? murderers, dictators, rapists, pedophiles run this country, and yet we are the bad ones? our president can take sex slaves on a billionaire's island, and yet I am the one doing wrong? I am immoral for wishing bad things upon these people? I am the one destroying the environment when I drink out of a plastic bottle? I am the one indoctrinating children and destroying Christian morals? 

it is disgusting. I am disgusted by this country everyday. we are weak and we will die with our bellies up because we are cowards, we are worshippers to a fault, and even if we weren't, we would never have a chance against the sheer power of our government.