wtf

i am truly in the phase of that out of touch feeling 

you know all the shits im currently on feels so fucking trivial all the things i once felt was so gone like its not going back at all 

internet, memes, conversations, the whole world, ideologies, moralities whatever the shit 

like everything just felt so so so dry in its core 

im trying so hard to describe the shit without trying to sound like a nihilist (it does) 

you know that feeling when a goofy situation appeared out of nowhere it is so goddamn fresh and funny initially and then 10 seconds later i suddenly realized it sucks like my joy is so pretentious and how my fake ass smile is trying to be authentic 

things just dont make sense if you dont have the appetite for it 

calling it isolation is not fair cause it is much different, i dont want to be alone and do anything like scroll the feed for some temporary dopamine to cheer my ass up 

its so fucking fake (we all are fake) 

(tbh i still do that) 

like when you found out that connecting rope linked to everyone is getting torn apart and you can do a single thing to help keeping it 

mom you was right i should not have spent that much time in front of the goddamn computer