A few random bits of writing/poetry ive done

Original writing date: Febuary 18th, Name: I still feel you everywhere

Back then i could barely see, 2 pixels of your knees

Finally got sent the full image, or maybe it finally revealed itself to me

You pleading on the floor for my leather touch

My eyes were wrapped, tied away from what you were trying to say

Now i lay awake, teeth to sheets

Your ghost haunting me even though i was the one who chose to leave

I kiss the blue screens of my memories

Im just so awfully caught in a web of old interests

The cd pierced the freckles that night

A faux face, a mechanic made to press what was already left

The diphenhydramine sat knocked off my bed

Quivering in the same poisoned sea passed down

Your kiss was actually that of a muse's frown

The lie of love covered reality again

Acid coats my insides, finally reaching its full potential

It was dropped in the second i sprouted

A wolf of genes continues to rip my skin

An empty car teases me, its engine having shared the same fate

At last i start to beg, and i swear i can see the figurative body

He looks me in the eye, his tear reflecting mine, shakes his head

"Not yet"

Original writing date: March 22nd, Name: Kaijuicidal

You knew that the summer would stalk the storm. The uncomfortable sensation of snow that bulged before the bolts already warned you. You're still upset by the desert drought though, your the only one who chooses to blame you. Fleeting raindrops. Staring in the second story window.

Its stuck down straight into the pit of your throat. Shaking. This isn't you, but you almost want it to be. If only you could rip out all your hormones. Psychology has stopped precipitation in you. It fucking sucks.

God told you this would happen. Your parents told you this would happen. The world told you this would happen. Tornadoes happen but you still react like a damn dog. Throw yourself into your family. Throw yourself into your friends. Throw yourself into your bed. Throw yourself into your head. Throw yourself into your bath. Throw yourself off your ledge.

"I am a monster. I am a monster. I am a monster. I am a monster. I am a monster. Hate me. Destroy me."

Original writing date: May 8th, Name: Offline

I don't know how to write notes, this is the first time I've ever thought about it, first time I've ever been the one yelling the call to action. Maybe it's cuz this the first time it's felt this type of real. I don't know how I was able to believe, I dont know why I let myself believe, I know worse now. Isn't the world beautiful? Canines hold the answer, we bark it out together i guess. We made a nothing of ourselves, and we've always known that. Fuck, im sorry. Ive lost my point man. Cameras call, licking my ears. I've got a hole in my skull waiting for an object, clawing me. Don't dream of me, ok? Hold your own hand. Goodnight man. 

Offline for the rest of my life

Original writing date: July 28th, Name: And it feels like it's snowing

I want a man who will let me crawl into his ribs

Surrounded by the crashing ocean

In a little boat, null to the pain that's waiting for me

I'll want to live in the hotels where me and him will be

Becoming passengers to every joyride that we see

I'll be a strangling mic, he'll be the beautiful one to scream

Scream what I've known all my life

None of us can escape to sea