poetry? nah, im just a cringe, angsty teen who needs to get things out

Hmm... feelings:

I might be angry, and i do not know why.

I think it might be because i think a lot... or because i think i dont think enough.

Maybe it's because i bury my feelings and dont know how to express them.

Maybe because i want to tell someone off but have no idea how.

Anger is a strange emotion, it makes you do petty things, it makes you unpredictable, it makes you irrational.

I know many people explode after burying their anger, but i dont think im like that, and i dont have the sort of intimidating silent rage, i just get annoyed, overstimulated or overwhelmed.

I dont like my "anger" as it doesnt give people something to be afraid of, since my anger just makes me seem like a disgruntled cat.

But i think people should be grateful that i have not acted on my violent tendencies and tried to kill them yet, as i have had the opportunities, and i also think they should be glad i havent killed myself as the subtle anger is all consuming but unexplainable.

I dont mean to sound like an edgy teenager, i am only trying to put my emotions into words, which is a difficult thing in itself.

This seems like a lot to me, but i know that if i truly understood myself it would be much longer.

I do not think i was made for anger, perhaps the purpose of my creation is to merely exist in constant melancholy and confusion, perhaps i was not made for understanding myself at all, perhaps i was made for understanding others.

And although i prefer looking at things with a logical view and do not understand why people do anything emotionally, i think i also understand people more than they understand themselves, and it might be that im just assuming, but if i wasnt, then it is only one of life's many conundrums.

Some people live in a constant state of anger but i do not think that could ever be me.

I started this saying that i might be angry, and maybe i am, or maybe im just spewing words and making them sound pretty when i do not actually know anything for sure, but perhaps im not angry, perhaps i just have to understand myself more.

I doubt i'll ever understand my emotions... I want to say 'but i do know' and end this with something motivating, but i do not know, im merely a teenager who's used to being logical, trying to understand feelings, but it's not working and i am now more confused than when i started, but it's fine.... i think.

(this is so fucking cringe, and i'll probably take this down once the embarrassment kicks in, but for now enjoy... or cringe alongside me)