getting comfy ig

im reading these top blogs and honestly think that some of these people are so brave to share their experiences and worries on an app full of people theyve never met (will also prob never meet but still). i wanna work towards being like that too wo i wanna post on here about my day or complaints about life and stuff like that but there's something im very worried about with myself that i would really like the opinion of others on.  i was reading a blog by a girl about her experience as a virgin and being scared of missing out on an essential experience (THATS NOT WHAT IM WORRIED ABOUT) it just made me think about this thing and im not sure what to do.  without context to what the situation i just want to see how people take this and tell me what they think about it.  im going to say im 13-16f and this problem has been the same since i was about 9 so i thought it wouldve regulated out by now but its honestly kind of scary. i dont want to make this seem like more of a big deal than it actually is so other than that all im going to say is people around me say im lucky and they wish they'd have it this wat but idk im scared theres something wrong with me..  i want to work towards feeling comfortable enough to actually say what it is but i dont know if it's tmi or if anyone would really care. (also i dont want to seem gross so i think im just gonna leave it at this) BTWWWW i didnt plan this so its reallly just me rambling and jotting down how im thinking so i dont know if this made sense lol.. anyways thx for reading x3