i hate being chopped

NOT COMPLIMENT FISHING + srry 4 bad grammar

am i the only 1 that when they look in the mirror they feel like god themselves, like, in my mirror i have a sharp ass jawline, eyes as sharp as a cats and body tea, but the minute i see a picture of myself OH MY GOD??, suddenly im fucking shreck and lord fardquad mixxed together into some kind of disgusting chopped creature omfg. 

and the thing is like, i try my best to look pretty but i still look like i js came from an insane isalum, no matter what makeup, lashes and clothes, i still look like an unatended badly cut hair 10yo, and idk how to mf glow up. 

ive tried everything for glowing up, getting more tan? fades away in a week, baggy clothes? look saggy not baggy, short hair? be looking like a cheap temu wig, long hair? be looking like i cut my hair with my kitchens sicssors, i just cant glow up, and i got schoon in like 2 weeks, idk what to do!!! 

i wish i knew what to do to look good, can anyone relate or am i just going insane? anyways, i like doing vlogs, ts wont b my last one, cya!!!