first week of school review

hey guys! so its Sunday now and i wanted to give an update on my new class and how the first week of school as been for me. (spoiler: it was HELL)

so i began Tuesday, 10 am with a "mentormoment". thats were the mentor of the class gives a whole speech about rules, things for this year and about important events. I hesitated to walk in at first. I was scared since i wasnt ready for a new class. for hell to begin for me. i knew what was gonna happen bro, i've expierenced it many times before (aka my whole life). i walked in slowly and sat down in the back. Three new people already there. two boys on the other side of the classroom and one girl behind me. The boys were laughing at me. i paid no mind to it because that was just the tip of the iceberg of what could happen to me (since i have seen and expierenced shit outside and inside school). then the rest of the class entered. a lot of old classmates from my class from last year are also in that class. they gave me weird looks and snickered at me. like i was some sort of nuclear mishap. like i just grown a second head. A group of girls walked in (who were actually pretty nice) and they sat down infront of me. my mentor walked in and went to his desk to turn on his laptop.

My mentor (who is also my Dutch teacher) is an old, white man in his 60s. He's very nice and calls me by my prefferred name and pronouns so thats a plus. the bell rang and he went to Check if anyone was there. than i saw someone's name on there that literally made my soul fly out of my ass. There was this guy from last year, who was also in my class who tormented me. He wa s actually fucking horrible to be around and i hated him to my fucking core. Even before i was in his class he literally made me fall in a whole crowd of people while walking to class. Well he wasnt there that day, luckily. My mentor began the lesson and talked about school rules, PTA, school exams and lastly about camp. That word already makes me wanna throw up. He said: "Camp will make the class more tight-knit and will improve teambuilding skills!" as if it wasnt a fucking suicide pact to myself if i go there! i'd rather lick the bottom of a kiddie pool and eat a whole salvia plant than being imprisoned with my absolutely horrible classmates for 3 days straight. Well it soon ended and i bolted to a my usual smoking spot to smoke a cigarette. 

Wednesday is when hell was opening to me again. I first had French and Economics. those went.. okay. i had a knot in my stomach and didnt talk. then i had Economics again and English. English was horrible. that guy that made me fall into a crowd of people (We'll call him Loofah) Loofah tried to ragebait me in English class with calling me a girl under his breath but it didnt work. I just laughed in his face. Nothing special happened at Dutch and math. Thursday was questionable. i had D&P for the first time. The teacher i had was pretty nice. he is also my Geography teacher. we made a smoothie and a portfolio and it was pretty fun. than i had Geography. he didnt want to deadname me so he literally yelled through the class: "MISS *last name*" he apologized for it tho.