struggling with extreme artblock and it is killing me

its like.. i have ideas...but i also dont.. and whenever i open up clip studio it just sorta. sits there open and i never do anything. And when i do actually draw i end up getting pissed off because it doesnt look how im wanting.

I think the main problem is im just depressed right now LOL, but also my art is mostly fanart so i sometimes just feel uninspired. im weird about drawing my ocs because no one gives a fuck. And i know i shouldnt care if anyone gives a fuck because "drawing is supposed to be fun" or some bullshit. 

i might try to experiment or whatever. i fucking hate the art community, i shouldnt be worried about experimenting with my art LMFAO