Life update

I kinda slept for 4 hours and that will do DJ.. That will do!

But when I woke up..  I see that SpaceHey is alive and well. and then I never expected to smile.. and then had a serious thought in my head.

First the smile 

I have see one of my friends and her semi changes of her pfp! (Even though she seldom talks to her friends on here.. but when she does.. it is good information or words of encouragement)

Well.. apparently this woman can fit into a large oversized cocktail martini glass!  And that makes me smile..  and wondered if that was AI generated, photoshopped or that actually happened.  Either way.. she gave me a smile 😊 

PS she is also the only one who publicly said my real name.. as someone does read profiles 😂 

Oh I don’t name my friends on the blogs.. those will be done on the bulletins.. because reasons!

But of course it made me realise that there is the second part of this

Letting go

Years ago, I met this woman, and this was before my ex wife (yes I was married.. I have been divorced for 13 years) and I realised that I was actually in love with her.. but I did not say anything.. but then 6 years ago she got married and I should not said anything.  Today I need to let go, and even though at 13 years after the divorce, and 14 years since I got intimate with a woman.. I have to move on and let go of the past.

Now I am taking care of my mother, as she is getting older, and I only have one day a month going to games, or travelling to Sydney to see that psychiatrist.  And I know when she passes away, I will be purely alone.  But also there are a lot of people that have older generations of parents that are still alive, and when they leave this mortal coil..  they, like I will, be sad.. but had learned a lot by them.

So I need to start dating again..  but under my terms..  no fucking apps.. unless I make one! 😂