I love writing things down in my notebooks bro

Let’s be real—does anyone actually enjoy lying in bed, trying to fall asleep, only to be ambushed by the most cringe or gut-wrenching memories from who-knows-how-long ago? Yeah, me neither. I have a serious love-hate relationship with my own brain sometimes.

To deal with it, I’ve gotten into the habit of venting into notebooks. There’s something about writing those awkward or painful moments down that makes them feel a little less stuck in my head. Like, can a guy just get some peace and quiet? Anxiety, do us all a favor and go f*ck yourself.

Anyway, it’s September now, and the weather has officially shifted into what I like to call DEPRESSION FALL. Seriously, it happened overnight. One day it’s sunny and birds are chirping, the next it’s just… gray. All gray. So today, between the cloudy skies and my long list of "adulting" tasks (you know, saturday stuff), I was feeling pretty low.

After finally crossing everything off my to-do list, I was tired and honestly kind of down in the duumps. I grabbed one of my old journals, thinking I’d scribble down some thoughts and wallow a bit. I flipped it open to a random page and my god.

There they were: some truly atrocious, absolutely terrible rap verses I’d written for practice months ago. And I’m not gonna lie—they were so bad, they were hilarious. I couldn't even... I couldn't even cringe :sob: I just burst out laughing.

I thought about sharing them here, but 1) they’re all in Polish (oh god) 2) the sheer embarrassment would probably force me to delete my entire page.

So yeah. Shoutout to writing—I went in expecting to vent and sad.mp3, but instead I ended up cracking up at my own past silliness. It defenitely was worth having fun, writting those stupid sounding verses those months ago :DD

ps. i need some ideas for what to add to my profile bc im over here with a raw-dogged html code with barely any "css" while everyone has pages that look like they were made by veteran web page designers :sob::sob::sob: