Midnight Thoughts [Blog-Diary]

Well, the insomnia has hit. I was so sleepy at 8 I could barely stay awake, but now I'm awake. Still awake.

I want to make a blog update on my laptop at some point soon. Just feels more official than typing whatever on my phone. But right now I'm sitting on the couch because clearly I'm not getting any sleeping done in bed.

Ruby's exploring the living room. She's not been out here when it's so dark and silent. I'm hoping she'll sit on my lap or something.

That's something really nice about living here. The quiet. College dorms aren't usually known for their silence, but not only are ours pretty sound proof, my home was always way louder. My dad always had the TV on (and I mean always. Unless it auto turned off while he was asleep), and ofc we lived next to a pretty major road. It wasn't just a little on either- he's half deaf and my door was made of plywood, so I never got any escape from the noise. This wouldn't have been such a huge thing if I didn't have such severe auditory sensory issues in my teens. I'm still confused as to how I was 'cured' of that. It affected me so severely for many years, and now I don't experience it at all. Not that I'm unthankful- it's been absolutely life changing - but I am curious as to what made it stop.

Ruby just crawled onto my lap. She's a bit tense because the fridge made a weird noise, though. 

I nearly drove back home tonight, but mom was stopping by grandmas anyways and there wasn't much I could do to help. I'll probably end up stopping by tomorrow after I try to find a shower stool and walker for dad. And getting my cars ac fixed...

Ugh. THAT was annoying. Driving along and suddenly the air is a bit moist and warm. And I keep driving, and it just gets warmer. And I realize my ACs broken. That was one of the best parts about the car, honestly. A 2010 with pristine air conditioning. It blew COLD, which is important here in Florida. So I had to run all my Friday errands without car AC.

Oh yeah, and I showed up to therapy early. Like. An entire hour early. I didn't mean to- I left early so I could go thrifting, I was at goodwill and I saw that it was 3:45, so my mind said it was 4:45 and that I had to leave for therapy...

I ended up driving across the street to this quaint icecream shop, since I had the time. Only two people there were two girls- one working and one a friend hanging out with her. I got some twix icecream and just admired the place. It was so beautiful. Every wall painted a different bright color. I remembered going there once as a kid and thinking it was one of the coolest places ever. It was nice to go someplace myself. 

My head hurts dully and for the past few days I've been extra thirsty. I think my bodys trying to recover from me suddenly going crazy on cleaning the house. I actually sent my teacher an email when I got home requesting an extension on this weeks assignment because of how dead exhausted I was when I got home today. And yet here I am. Awake. 

I wonder if I actually caught something. I'm like, weirdly thirsty. I keep drinking water anyways. Maybe I'm just not absorbing it properly. I did kinda eat like crap today - Greek Yogurt for breakfast, pretzel crackers and hummus for 'lunch' and icecream for.... dinner? ,

Yeah no, maybe I should eat something. That might be why my heads angry at me. Whoopsies...

Probably just gonna make a cup of noddle for now, then have an extra hearty breakfast tomorrow.

I hope I can sleep soon.