mia...

so I play the bass guitar, im not very good at it yet but im trying to get better. I finally started taking real lessons with a teacher. here comes the bad part. she is my DREAM WOMAN. she is goth (not a poser at all), super friendly and fun to talk to, SEEMS TO RLY LIKE ME, and is just all around a cool person. BUT. she is 25 and straight. IM GONNA KILL MYSELF. MAN I FUCKING LOVE HER AND SHES A WHOLE ASS ADULT. it's not on my profile but im 16😭. so we've been alone in a little room jamming out to hole and weezer once a week, and im supposed to just enjoy that? no yearning? no sobbing to girl in red when I get home? nah. fucking hell this is so pathetic but idk what else to do.