First relationship ever but it's LDR

Now before you complain and go apeshit in my comments, I'm not complaining about my gf!!! I love my girlfriend, a lot

Because I'm a fucking loser about to be in my 20s and I've never had a girlfriend before, this is all new to me. I've never been in a relationship and I've especially never been in a relationship with someone 4000 km away. I've always thought I was too weird for a girl to like me, that I wasn't the cute or appealing kind of auDHD, that stuff. I'm quirky, but not really in a pleasant way. I'm quick to irritate if I'm not on schedule, if things don't go the way I expect them, if I lose focus for even a moment. It's not easy and it's not cute like western social media makes it

But my girlfriend

She's patient with me

More patient than anyone I've ever known, actually. She's everything I ever wanted in a girl, I can't believe I managed to get into a relationship with the girl of my dreams. I get flustered and giddy like a little schoolgirl with a crush thinking about it

Nobody really cared that I got a girlfriend, that's okay. I don't care when people get new boyfriends or girlfriends either, it's not my life. But they point out that I yearn a lot? I spend a lot of time thinking about her and when I'll actually be able to see her face in person. I guess it's corny? Do men just not love their girlfriends or something? Is this not normal?????

I don't understand how longing to see her is weird to my classmates, but my gf likes it so I'll keep loving her in my weird way

Ahora soy un hombre mamaaaaa