what if we grow apart

Am I the only one that just has those days where i dont want to talk. I just wanna be quit and its not that im sad, I am just thinking about nothing. Today was one of those days. I was outside with my friends today and I usually listen to music and thats what keeps me sort of awake and happy but my phone was about to die and I dont have my airpods in anyway when im with my friends. We were in a park and it was really quit. So that means I can focus on every little thing... REALLY EVERY LITTLE THING

My friends were talking of course but my brain just zones that out and i can hear the leaves,I can hear every movement their mouth make, I can hear the birds wheir wings flutter. Maybe its my adhd or maybe i am sad but that also wouldnt make any sense cuz their is nothing to be sad about

Maybe im sad that the summer is over and maybe because summer is over im scared that I will not see my firends as much. Cuz everybody got school and work and while the monthes pass by we arent friends anymore and drift away and all of a sudden its summer 2026 and i lost my bestfriends...

Maybe thats the thing im scared about, drifting away from my bestfriends the same way i always drift away when i am talking to a boy but thats a story for another time.

x ciao bella