The Kill (bury me) - 30 Seconds To Mars

Most of the song relates but these are the main lyrics I relate to

"You say you wanted more
  What are you waiting for?"

If I have you added on dm's you would've probably had me tell you this but I didn't tell people the whole reason because I hadn't opened up about it yet

For context the whole reason this relates to me is my eating disorder (not massively severe do not worry) because it caused the thing which made me relate to this song.

The way the song relates to me is that I have two voices in my head. One is encouraging and the other one is bringing me down, it used to be much worse but its died down a little bit but I can still feel its there. But now its like the encouraging voice is telling me to get help (in real life) and the voice bringing me down is saying that I should keep on going on because I will never be happy with myself if I get help (in real life). Because i've gotten just deep enough into it that if I start eating normally (as in not limiting meals I AM NOT STARVING MYSELF TO DEATH!!) I will probably end up killing myself because I would be living my fear.

The main lyrics (as in the ones I have put near the title for the song) mean to me as the voice bringing me down is telling me to not get help which I am doing a little bit on Spacehey, as talking about it in blog posts and bulletins have caught people's attention and then they want to help me (thank you guys <3 <3). But i'm not confessing this in real life, so I am following the voice's instructions along with me skipping meals (i have NOT gone a day without food im not starving myself to death as i'm not that deep into it).

The "two voices in my head thing" is actually the meaning of the song, the only reason I know this is because of this video, you should go watch it, it explains it really well.

Runaway - Linkin Park

Once again most of the song relates but these are the main lyrics I relate to

"I wanna runaway Never say goodbye
  I wanna know the truth, instead of wondering why"

The reason this song relates to me is because I feel like since I can't get out of my eating disorder and its going to get worse I might as well kill myself when it just gets to much to bear but this feeling has went down by alot, now I don't really care about the future, which i'm not sure is a bad thing.

The main lyrics (the ones at below the song title) relate to me because the phrase "I wanna runaway" is basically me wanting to kill myself so my eating disorder doesn't get extremely bad The lyric "I wanna know the truth instead of wondering why" is me wanting to get away from how toxic a part of my brain has become, which is telling me lies, sometimes I don't know what's real anymore.

Lying From You - Linkin Park

About 90% of the song relates to me but this is the lyric which does the most

"No, no turning back now"

The lyric "So i'm (lying my way from you)" relates because sometimes I feel like i'm lying to myself to convince myself I just need to stay here with the bad part of myself (the part which is bringing me down) as I feel like my "eating disorder" isn't that severe to be considered one and its instead just a issue with body image. I'm honestly so confused i'm not sure what i'm going through is this or that. The lyric "Let me take back my life" is me wanting to be free of this voice ,which is bringing me down. The lyric "Remember condescending talk of who I ought to be" is the bad part of me telling me what I have to look like, what I have to do and so on. Then the lyric "This isn't what I wanted to be" is me not wanting to have these issues.

The lyric relate mainly to in this song, which I mentioned in a earlier bullentin, "No, no turning back" is me not being able to get out from this and regretting ever doing anything to start this.

HOPEFULLY THIS WHOLE BLOG POST DOESN'T SOUND CRINGE!!!

I feel like its important to share this idk