HIM. 

my first blog, so don't judge!! man, i miss him. it's like i'm physically incapable of doing anything productive rn, and we never even dated. HE WAS JUST A CRUSH.  i mean, he was a senior, so ofc we didn't, but he never had to shut me out like that, he became friends with me AFTER finding out i liked him through a friend of mine. talked to me for 5 months, and boom, he's gone. and now he's dating his bestfriend's ex??? and him and his bestfriend have stopped talking. and his bestfriend texted me last week, just like randomly, and not something weird, but then halfway through it, he called me "good girl" for some reason (wtf) i js hated his bsf tbh, but he's also become such a weird person idk what to say anymore. he used to be nicer, and now he's just become this guy who's only filled with lust. i want that time back, if i had known we'd stop talking, i would've cherished my time.