3/8/21 Monday Brain Dump

Gonna start off by saying that I'm using this as an online journal/brain dump because minimal ppl I know IRL follow me here and for some reason shit posting online is more validating than a journal. If anyone actually reads this, hi. welcome. how are u? stay a while. 

3/8/21 First day of my involuntary T break. I've been smoking almost everyday for the past 4 months. Not a great habit but has helped in a lot of different ways. While a T break will be very good for me my night time anxiety is already coming back so that isn't great. 

I had a To-Do list of 3 things and did none of them. One including making a dentist appointment that I am dreading so much because in the past my depression affected my personal hygiene so I know my teeth aren't in great shape. I'm doing much better now with taking care of myself in that aspect but I feel the damage has already been done. 

I'm currently working on a new pair of nails which will be cotton candy inspired. Going to watch Demon Slayer in about a half an hour and rely on my melatonin to knock me out tonight. Overall today hasn't been the worst but you know. Covid life is weird. Its the little things tho, right? 

Happy Women's Day. Happy Monday. Let's survive the week, ok?