love hate friendship?? (vent sorta)

i kinda hate my friend/ex scotty, but cant bring myself to hate them. 😭

i never really lost feelings for them (even though they moved on VERY quickly and have a boyfriend) and have a lot of fun hanging out with them sometimes BUTT im starting to hate them..

they have started bragging about their new relationship and constantly try making me jealous, for no reason whatsoever! they also kinda ignore me sometimes and leave me out. and apparently i cant dislike someone who has done bad things anymore, when i told them i hated this dude named walker for something they did that was bad (im not saying since its complicated) they just told me to stfu. like WOAH there, you literally told me you hated walker yesterday, but now you switch up all of a sudden.

even though they keep doing horrible things, i still cant bring myself to hate them. i have known them for a long time, and we were REALLY close (dating). they have gone through so much in regards to mental health, and has helped improve my mental health in my many situations, yet i still kinda hate them. i know if i talk to them about it, they will just go around telling people (i have seen it happen before.)

honestly idk what i could possibly do in this situation, but thanks for reading loves!1!1 (⋆ˆ ³ ˆ)♥