hes so uuugughhhgh

SERIOUSLY i dont know what si up with him okay so basically theres this guy and hes on my bus, we have like 2 classes together but we dont really talk, he has his own friend group & i have mine (which is totally okay) and we've technically known each other for about 3 years. he lives in my neighborhood, weve played outside together, rode bikes, i went to his house occasionally, but recently in the past few months ive developed an interest!!!!!!!!!!!! I KNOW i was so upset because i genuinely valued our friendship --- therefore i did not tell him :( i REALLY shouldve because NOW HE HAS A GIRLFRIEDN GGGRGRRGUHHUHUG AND HE LOOKS SOOOOO MUCH BETTER FROM THE LAST TIME WE HUNG OUT oh yeah over the summer we didnt see each other for 3 months and he got his hair all grown out again with like this shag idk what to call it but uuugggghhhh AND his parents love me bro its perfect BUT MY MAIN CONCERN is that even though hes in a relationship, he still texts me first, still talks to me first, still asks to sit with me first (sometimes). i dont think any of our recent conversations were started by ME! the way he speaks to me he like looks ALLLLLL around my face and in my eyes its just so....... like...... idk hes WEIRD but i appreciate his attentiveness!!!! so idk if im crazy or not but ALSO HES ALWAYS TALKED TO ME LIKE THIS BRO ITS ALWAYS BEEN LIKE THIS and im not sure if im supposed to take it in a platonic way or not! bbbrbrrrooooo AND HIS GIRLFRIEND IS UGLY AS FUCK ILL SAY THAT SHES SOOOOOO FREAUNG UFLGY 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 belp me goodnight everyone