Lack of motivation, adobe animate, and cool music

2 September 2025 blog

Is there a way to fix that weird stuck feeling that comes from the perpetual want to accomplish things alongside an utterly unsurmountable lack of motivation? That's how I've been feeling lately, anyone else get like that sometimes? It's like, I have so many things that I want to do and cannot figure out which one to dedicate my time to.....so then I go and choose to do nothing at all! Even when I do decide to do something, it's always the most time consuming yet unnecessary task of them all. For example, this weekend. I hardly got any schoolwork done because I spent all my time working on a rather pointless animated music video in which one of my original characters lipsyncs and dances to the Beatles anthology 1 cover of Ain't She Sweet. Getting myself access to the adobe creative cloud through my school was a mistake. (although maybe my favorite mistake I've ever made) 

Can we do youtube iframe embeds on blog posts? Well, let's see. This is my first blog entry so I'm till learning the ropes.

I've always liked the idea of being a super cool Newgrounds animator. Not one of those weird ones. Too many of those

Anyways, I'm writing this in class, in case my procrastination habits weren't pronounced enough lol. Calculus ab, to be exact. Freaking hate this class. Omg AND the tables are set up in that weird way where I have to choose between nuzzling knees with the kid across from me or knocking skulls with the kid behind. God forbid someone's gotta squeeze past the tables to get to the front of the classroom...

Trying to find gifs on gifcities in class always feels so scary because, like, most of the gifs are normal but then all of a sudden its the most egregious pornography i've ever seen in janky gif format. I know this one doesn't really go with the theme but I was a lil scared to keep looking

Ooh, one album i've been OBSESSED with ever since I found it a few days ago is this album Asoka vs Cerebral. I clicked because I thought the album cover was super sick, but the music was even sicker!!! I'll embed it here.

Anyways...

I think I'll add more to this blog as my day progresses, but I honestly just wanted to get started on it because I've been wanting to blog for SO LONG.