A rant, my inadequacy in singing breaks me

Laufey - Snow White

I actually do sing, though with no experience but of course by free will nothing can stop me. I sing while doing chores in my house and sing when it's a good song I can cover, but never in those fancy chorales and talent shows, that's what I mean with no experience. I'm an alto, those with a muchh deeper voice. Laufey for example when she sang the song Clockwork, Dreamer, and Castle in Hollywood, I take a voice just like hers mostly in those songs--and it's great I have a lot of fun. But being surrounded by those with much higher voices like alto 1's as an alto 2 makes me feel I lack everything they had. I'm not in those music clubs anymore, I tried out last year! I never participated because I knew nobody I liked, and it was uncomfortable. It's those occurrences when me and my friend sing a song we like out of nowhere because, you know, we'd like to and of course not the full song just verses.

When we do, it's always those "You sound so deep.", well I'm sorry I can't go any higher out of my range. :(

"You won't stay in my tune." I'm not like you and I've never had your experience. :(

"Make your voice a little higher." all I can do is laugh along.

And those eyessss and those looks that I can never understand and all I can do is stop. But oh, myyyy it hurts. I like singing and I will continue more of it of course. I understand I need more practice and improvement but the only one I've ever had is through time. I can't help but feel so inadequate. I like being different, my whole life I've embraced it's all we all are, but when many are so similar it makes you feel that YOU are the only one different.