thinking

i hate thinking

i dont like having thoughts

i feel so upset right now

i just wanna die

i wanna kill myself

i'd turn on some music or watch a youtube vid to distract myself but my headphones are dead and i also just dont feel like it

i wish i didnt have thoughts

i wish i didnt have emotions

wish i didnt have empathy

i feel like shit right now

i just keep replaying stuff in my head and its making me feel like shit

i feel guilty

i feel cringe

why am i always like this

why do i always do the cringiest shit

why do i always end up making others uncomfortable

and why do i always have to feel so awful for it

i want to stop

but theres only one way to do that

and im too much of a coward for that

so i guess i'll just lay here with my thoughts til i can distract myself

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space_cadet

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I’m not gonna say it gets better. Life charts a course that you have very little control over in all honesty. But you’ve already boarded the ship and you’ve got a crew that needs you so you just have to keep waiting. Also, odd are there’s a clear patch past the horizon somewhere and you will be vividly alive.

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Loserstrpe

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This one hit close to home, it really sucks having thoughts u dont want but one thing that personally helps me, is remembering how easy things can be thought or not. What matters are the actions you’re taking. hope you feel better and doing ok

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Meward Gay

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I kinda get how you feel, I promise it can get better

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