THEY TRIED TO KEEP ME AWAY

G*y ass law in the UK restricted this website, that’s why I’ve been gone for so long if anyone was wondering… (talking to the two people who view my account every few months) Alas, I have made my way back to you despite all of these stupid government mandated obstacles. 

Uhhhhh updates… I have become a radiohead fan at almost 21 years old, I don’t know why it took this long, I have finally gotten Elliott Smith’s entire discography on my iPod which is awesome, aaaaand I’m gonna sign up to volunteer at my local library’s cafe (hopefully, if my Uni schedule isn’t crazy this month and if I have time outside of school and work) I’ve been jobless all summer, it would’ve been cool to have known about the volunteering thing sooner. Lame.

Feeling very frustrated with the state of the world. Everywhere I look there is suffering. Palestine, America, Congo, my family is fucking poor right now and it’s kinda rough. I just wanna feel positive about something. I wanna feel like I am making a positive impact on the world. I am privileged enough to have spent my life thus far pretty much just concerned with my own little life and how boring and unfulfilling it is. I wanna stop moping and feeling sorry and start doing something about it. (In the words of paramore.. “got no time for feeling sorry”

I am starting Uni this month (it’s crazy that it’s September already... and so exciting) and it’s crazy because everyone else my age started Uni in 2023. I was twiddling my thumbs and procrastinating leaving college back then. Not that I regret staying in college another year — I don’t. I made great friends and did a lot of self discovery in that year. However, after a gap year… I am feeling very ready to re-enter society. I hope my course isn’t full of 18 year olds cause I’m trying to get into the dating game and I am far too old to be eyeing up 18 year olds. Yuck. (Note “enter” and not “re-enter” because I have never actually been in the dating game. Being a closeted lesbian really has its toll on romantic development!)

Basically.. tl;dr… I am just as much of a loser as ever, feeling like a sorry ass who needs to get out and make the world better… looking forward to feeling like a human with a purpose again and MAN it would be good to see some action this year. And also it’s my birthday in about two weeks. For the first time ever I actually keep forgetting that I’m not already 21. Getting older is weird.

cya later (probably just writing this for myself to read back on in like 4 years but whatever)