why cant i be fucking normal

hey ik i just posted a blog literally five minutes ago but i’m just confused as hell. confused as yo why people have to be so horrible to others. why this war? why does everyone i think i love suddenly turn into someone i don’t really like? alright, i’ll pick one topic.

so i’m dating someone, right? yeah. they’re so nice, and i like them, i do. but before we started dating, i had a crush on them and i just couldn’t stop thinking about them and all the romantic bullshit. now that i’m dating them. though, i’m just kind of bored. it’s happened with every other relationship i’ve had, too. it’s not a gender thing, i’ve dated literally every gender, i just don’t know.

i really want romance, and i get it for, like, a week after i start dating someone, but then the boredom comes, and i just really want something new, someone else. i can’t break up with the person i’m dating, it’s literally been like two weeks and i can’t hurt them like that.

i just really hate myself for getting so bored of one person! like what the hell am i? i just want to feel real happiness with a person for once in my entire pathetic existence. is that so fucking hard?!?!

help.