um, idk anymore

we only live once, so why spend that time with envy and pain in our hearts? I know everyone has their own struggles and problems, but since none of us know when our time will end, I believe our days should be filled with love and curiosity about life. I’m not saying I have it all figured out, honestly, I’m just a weird, lonely person myself. but at least I’m aware of what the future might hold, and that awareness makes me want to live a little better.

most days, my chest feels heavy with pity and resentment. I still don’t know how to get rid of those feelings, so instead I numb them as a temporary solution. I know it’s not the healthiest way, but at least it allows me to get through life in my own way. Deep down, though, I still hope I’ll figure out how to replace that numbness with something real, something that actually brings peace.

idek where I’m going with this blog, but I guess I just want to say this: if you’re harsh, inconsiderate, or living without the awareness that life is short, then something needs to change. A salty heart and a self-centered soul won’t take you far. Do whatever you want in life, but don’t waste it being someone who only brings others down. There’s already enough pain in the world, we don’t need to add more to it.

no matter how hard you try, someone as little as us will be forgotten in just a matter of years after we die.