i love him

i love him a lot 

my best friend

i love him (platonically tho)

i told him how awesome he is and how superior he is to everybody else

he thanked me

and the way he phrased it was kinda cute, it felt like he was treating me as if i were something cute and small yknow

he was all like "awww well tysm blake" and its all like hjdjhjdjhdnj 

like it feels like he does really care about me and loves me and stuff 

i just feel so special

i think i could take on the world 

i think i could actually win in life

my ego is so big rn 

i think i could take on anything

i wanna be his cute boy

i dont really wanna date him, i wanna stay as just friends, im not in love with him

but i still kinda wanna be considered as his and for him to be considered mine

like i dont wanna date him, neither of us would wanna date eachother

but i want to have that closeness and specialness and such 

i want him to value me above everybody else

pretty sure he already does lol

he's said before that im one of his very few true friends

and he's said im the coolest one

he seems to actually care about me

not sure if its actually empathy or if its just cuz i serve a purpose to him but

it definitely makes me feel special

he said he doesnt feel empathy towards anyone, not even friends or lovers

and yet he seems to care about me so much

not sure if its empathy or just cuz im the only one who truly understands him but either way

its clear he likes me a lot more than others

and that makes me so fucking happy

i like being special to him

i wanna always be special to him

i miss him

hes asleep rn

i wish he wasnt 

its lowkey pissing me off that i cant talk to him rn

but alas, my prince needs his beauty sleep

is it too weird to call him my prince? i promise i do NOT wanna date this guy i just think its cute to call him that yknow... cuz he's like a prince to me, he's special and superior and super cool and deserves to be treated like he's the best person ever

cuz he is

he is the best person ever

he is superior to everyone.