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back again for another..diary..thing I guess?? anyways, today wasnt all that different. Except i actually STUDIED today! Weird, I know. Anyways, I spent like, ALLL DAY, doing a SINGULAR physics chapter! I was supposed to do more but its like, 10pm now. Who the hell is gonna study now? Life is soooo boring. like, SO SO SOO BORING! I freaking hate it. I wish I lived in an interesting, NON BORING PLACE!

Speaking of which, Im seeing people starting to talk about autumn?? like, ALREADY?! Where I live we're averaging about 113 fahrenheit everyday! ugh, way to piss me off again. Come to think of it, maybe im just pessimistic AF. There MIGHT be a bright side to my life rn..like the fact that I have food to eat and stuff to stay cool with or something..but I cant help but feel envious of those people that are already enjoying the breezy autumn weather and slightly darker mornings! Like, god forbid a girl wanna have an interesting life! My summer was boring enough.

Even worse, Im still stressing about my tests and exams. I wish I was that one kid that just never came to school all year and only attended to give the final exams..too bad I built a social presence for myself at school (JK OBVIII, I LOVE MY FRIENDS!).

Sigh. Anyways, my dad promised that we'd go out somewhere today in the evening, but look where we are now. 10pm and no one's left the house. He's a busy man I wont blame him, but I kept trying to engage with my siblings about where we'd go, theyre all just introverted or not willing to go out. No hate to introverts, everyone's different in their own way, but I thought my family has had enough time alone?? Like, Im talking MONTHHS of no real "family activity"! And get this, when I actually plan something with my friends, my mom gets all mad at me!!? I dont even know why but she just acts mean to me all day! She doesnt even greet me when I get back or ask about my day! Im sorry Im a teenage girl that has friends, I guess?!

Oh, also, at the beginning of this year, I got reaalllyy into walking. Not in the fitness way or trying to loose weight way, I mean, just simple walks with music in my ears. I love doing it so much. It clears my mind in ways I genuinely cant even explain. After like a month or two the weather wasnt suitable enough for it anymore.. I gotta wait until like, november till I can walk again. Ill try to get permission to walk out further than just around my house when it gets cooler though, I mean, Im older now and think I should have atleast one thing to myself. I barely get privacy in this house as is, I mean, I share my room with 2 other people!

I just remembered that school's on sunday. Mood ruined. I have a plan though, Ill just wake up like, suuper early. Im talking 7am (on a WEEKEND!) so that I can get as many hours as possible to myself. Dont think im forgetting that promised day out either!! Either I drag my family to some cute coffee shop, or we at LEAST, order food. xd