My kitten past away. This is my note for her but it can't discribe how much i'll miss her

Moje kotě právě umřelo. Táta ho našel v trávě u silnice. Znamenala pro mě opravdu moc, brácho, nevím, co mám dělat, cítím se tak z toho v prdeli. Why could't i be there and just that night take her to my room. If i did then this would never happened. Why could't i just take more care of her? I will miss her so much and i just feel more sad now but i dont want my parents to worry. I was looking at her dead body many minutes and then i killed a bug because it was hurt and could't even walk. Idk what to do. I dont want her to go under ground. I want her alive and cuddle with her like i could do more when she was alive. I'll miss you cheese and even when you are just cat and can't read you were a real friend to me and even when it sometimes didn't looked like it then i am sorry and i swear i'll take better care abaut your sister. I love you my baby. I dont want to say good bye and i never will. Because i adopted you when i was at my worst and you and my sister bring a little lite into my life. Do i'll never forget you. I love you my little baby.