I thought growing up was going to be a lot more fun.

I kinda just had a few shitty years and now I'm almost an entire adult man. Ironically enough they are supposed to teach you as a child how to be an adult, but I feel like none of that was passed down to me. I feel like with the lack of that knowledge things would be easy, maybe you look at the world a different way then you don't know how it works. But I do know how it works and it just freaks me out.

I thought that maybe there would be more to my past life, like I as supposed to be doing more things as a kid. I try not to think about this in the way an older person would, thinking about how things were way better in my day, but its something I feel is true. One other thing is true and that is I didn't live as much as I probably should've. Blame it on depression, blame it on ADHD, blame it on COVID, all I know is there is not going back.