FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL FAILED!!

TW(gross stuff and od..)

OMGGG i literally haven't been back since the first day- so basically ive been struggling to actually go to school since the end of 7th grade bcs of like bullying, depression, anxiety blah blah.. it got worse during 8th (i missed over 100 days so the fact that i even passed is crazy) fast foward to 9th and the first day-

im stress eating all night before id end up going to sleep, i wake up and i have like about an hour before ii had to leave.. during that time im like 'i don't rlly wanna go at all wtf' soo i decide to be stupid and took a bunch of pillz..to basically od (spoilers it didnt work). my mom and i were sitting outside for like 30 mins bcs i was too scared to tell her what i did.. and then my friend fucking pulled up, my mom told me to get out the car to walk in with my friend.

while me and my friend were waiting for my mom to finish talking with my friends mom im freaking the hell out- im like "bruh i need to go to the hospital or something" my friend kinda brushed it off since they thought i was joking.

anyways lemme js ge to the point- were in the front office after my friend went to class, i alr told my mom so she tells the ppl in the front office whats going on... and while she does that, what did i do? i fucking threw up.. now u think "oh that wasnt so bad" NO I THREW UP AND SHIT AT THE SAME FUCKING TIME, im so glad no students were around to see that.

like imagine if i went to class without saying anything... that would have been more embarrassing then it alr was.. i havent been back since but im gonna try to go tmr and if not im gonna try rlly hard next week..

(yes i am ok and my body seems fine so :p)

TLDR:i tried to od bcs i didnt wanna go to school threw up and shit at the same time in the front office-