Making a List

I should really change my blog post layouts soon lol 

Does anyone else struggle with making a list of things they would like for someone??? 

I really like things because I like collections, and I like expressing my interests through that way — like books, records, magazines, stuffed animals, toys, movies, etc. I especially like it when people gift me things, and I love gifting people things that align with their interests. And I KNOW there are things I want (and need) because I really like things, and I don't really have the money to buy things. But I really struggle with creating a list for someone when they ask me, 'Oh, send me a list of things you want for your birthday, Christmas, etc and I'll buy something for you', because all the sudden, my mind blanks. Anything I have ever thought of wanting just disappears from my brain, and I don't know what to list because nothing comes to mind. Then, when something finally crosses my mind, I'm second-guessing myself whether I should ask for it or not — even when the person says, 'It's okay, just get it'.

This probably never happens to most people but it's really bugging me. Especially because I have someone offering to buy me books and writing/drawing materials, but now I can't even think of a single title I have been dying to read or if I really should get a sketchbook and journal. I don't knowwwwwwww