breakup

this my first blog idk, no one ever talks about how when ur in a relationship for so long and get out of it,, u kinda dont know who u r anymore like me. im 21 single and jus so confused how i lived so long under someone controlling and crazy. rdy to explore life and the world w a new perspective its weird how lonely i am now like literally i do not have a single girlfriend or person to talk to no cousins no bestie no friend no girl or boy, only my parents but obv i can only tell them so much before it gets weird lol. im always by myself i eat lunch alone i do everything alone, the few times i hear my own voice is when im signing or talking to myself. i feel like such a LOSERRRR anyone else?