Self-reflection

Hi, I’m not really sure how to start this, I guess I just want to express myself. 

Am I the only one who’s never really felt free to talk? I honestly think I’m an interesting person (even if that sounds a bit egotistical). I have thousands of things inside me that I’d love to share, but the very idea of doing it terrifies me.

I don’t know if I’d describe myself as shy, but I do know I’ve never really been able to talk about the things I love. I don’t know if it’s because I never had people to listen, or because I never had the courage. I always see people online saying they’re shy in real life but feel free behind a screen, but that’s never been the case for me. Anything I post, I reread a thousand times out of fear, and most of the time I delete it right away, embarrassed that it even came from me. So in the end, I can’t really express myself, neither online nor in real life.

I’ve always felt connected to Todd Anderson from Dead Poets Society (amazing movie, go watch it). He has so many things to say but no voice to say them with. I think that’s why I’d like to start posting things here. I want to break out of this and free myself, start expressing who I am, because honestly, I do want people to get to know me, and of course I’d love to meet others too. So maybe you’ll see another post from me here at some point. Maybe not something so deep, but definitely about something I truly love talking about.

Sorry if my English isn’t perfect, it’s not my first language. And thanks for reading if you made it this far. I hope that if there’s anyone who feels like I do, they realize they’re not alone :)

P.S. Does anyone know how to customize the look of blogs? I’ve tried, but it doesn’t seem to work.