Blog 8: therapy (vent)

Who knew therapy would be a lot of work? I do lots of journaling, so my therapist has me write down how I feel about something and then go back and write a reaction/response to the memory. Its kinda hard, but I'm seeing the benefit to it. When I'm thinking back, I can add details I missed in the first retelling of the memory, and I can also tell myself that what happened was because of factors out of my control. 

It's all about learning about self-compassion and not being as hard on myself. It will be a long journey to feel as if I'm not having to prove everything to everyone. 

I'm going to be taking everything one step at a time. It may take me years to be as healthy as my peers. I've missed out on so much that I'm not at the same level as them. I'm having to learn skills that 11-year-olds learn. There are 11-year-olds who have more emotional skills than me.