Just another girl on the subway.

Could it be that I'm unconsciously running away? I mean, I'm slowly distancing myself, even though I know I'm not obligated to write to her, and neither is she to me, but there's a certain strange air 

I don't know if I should just leave, I just won't be the same with her, does she still want me there?  I've been thinking, today I woke up sad thinking about it, I wish I didn't keep thinking about it, I don't want to leave her because I promised myself I wouldn't do it again but what if I don't feel comfortable and if this just torments us both 

I don't want to keep crying or screaming every time I get stressed about this. 

I'm not a chill girl who keeps everything to herself, who puts up with everything and who pretends.

Me giving myself problems every day when she maybe doesn't even care, maybe a little or maybe nothing.

She has goals, she's busy with her own things, she has friends to talk to, but once I get home, I'm alone with my thoughts.