hmmm music?

I took piano for a few years, but I didn't have the patience to practice every day. Yes, my parents made me practice every day. I was genuinely interested in it, but the fact that I had to play it every day before doing other things I wanted to do was a deal breaker for me. At that point, my version of "practicing piano" was playing three songs three times as fast as I could then playing Minecraft for the rest of the day. Then I moved and I haven't touched my keyboard since.

I also took guitar for a little while, but I dropped that way sooner than piano because, once again, I didn't have the patience to practice. I also am extremely uncomfortable with my parents watching and/or hearing me practice anything, so I just stopped. 

I can't remember a thing from either of those, even when I took piano for several years. However, it's been several years since I even took them. 

There's also the issue of singing, which I doubly can't do. I'm insecure about my voice too, since no matter how feminine or masculine it is I just won't be comfortable with it. My choir director really discouraged me with my voice, since I tended to get called out for singing out of tune. By the way, don't call people out for singing out of tune by making each person sing individually. Just don't call people out. Teach them how to actually sing in tune.

At this point it just boils down to the fact that I'm uncomfortable with everything and I don't know how to do things. It's be a lot easier if I could just do them without having to deal with the worst bit.

I dunno, I'm getting frustrated just writing about it lol