It has been a WHILE huh?

I JUST remembered this website exists and DAMN, this profile doesn't reflect me properly anymore </3 I love growing up!!! might as well talk about my life on here since no one except Sansy is probably gonna read this (HI SANSY!!). My next college semester is starting up tomorrow, and the pre-semester anxiety is hitting me super hard, especially since I had an amazing summer in terms of my art, and I feel a deep pit in my stomach having to leave behind my art focused life to go back to my middling hell. I can't help but feel extremely aimless when it comes to what I want out of my life and career. At the same time though, I can't put into words why I feel so aimless. I want to pick art as my career, but for so many reasons, both internal and external, I don't see it as a viable option, but there is no Plan B, because nothing else really interests me besides art. I'm currently stuck in a course that I couldn't give less of a shit about, which is adding to my anxiety(?) and aimlessness in my life. My heart truly wants to make art my career, but I just don't have the gumption or strength to go through with it, or tell anyone about it for that matter. I guess you people are the first! Fucking hell, this got way too real.

Might as well just stop here, thanks for reading my therapy session whoever is reading this (Sansy), didn't mean to get so real while typing this </333