how to survive school year

I'm glad that i have goals for this year. it's all not only about studying hard and read books so i could speak like smart people. 

for beginning i want to tell short story.

for all last year i was in new country(i've arrived earlier but this story is a long one) and, obviously, in new school. i have strange face. i don't want to be a crybaby and insulting my face. i just telling facts. and i also had like a REALLY short haircut. i didn't wear any makeup. i've started noticeble changes in my appearance and style only in January 25. and everyone in my school were mean to me even more. okay - not all the school obviously, it just seemed like this at those days. mostly it was kids from the opposite class used to tell jokes about my look. 

and, how i've already said, in those gray days i was captured by fear of being an ugly weirdo. so i just stopped myself anytime i wanted to wear something like red tights with dumb sweater. and it did not helped. i still was an ugly weirdo almost to everyone.

so what do we have - there's always gonna be mean people. they just can't wait to ''eat your flesh'', like a zombie(not the cool ones), by telling their "smart" jokes. it's their way to survive in the school society with it rude rules - insulting the weak ones. those kids always ready for jokes on you, while they themselves can be called a joke, can they?

and what is my final answer? 

i want to wear weird stuff on my young flesh and to be happy with it.

i want to do my messy hair messed up even more and to be happy with it.

i want to change my make up look daily and to be happy with it.

why should someone care about kids, who uses mean tools to be someone meaningful in society?

let's all be people while we can. while we still breathing(the same air),

still moving(on the same planet),

just read it and hold those sentences in mind for a while(like teabag).

you're reading thoughts of a real person with living mind that could stop anytime. but not today.

today i able to think about such a thing like future. 

isn't it pretty to be a living creature? the special one. we all the special ones.

p.s. btw my name is Rai and English is not my first language.