Re-learning self expression (Vent sesh)

Lately I've been challenging myself to be less afraid of self expression and creativity. I feel like I've been hiding my true self for so long that I've forgotten how to express what I've kept hidden, and trying to relearn that is honestly very daunting. I'm making a challenge for myself for the rest of this year to try new hobbies that exercise my creative muscles because I truly do long for a creative outlet to express myself, and I'm tired of holding myself back all because I feel like my ways of expression won't be as "good" or "valid" as other people's. 

I bring this up because I'm about to finish massage school and become a licensed massage therapist, and for the first time in a long time I feel like I have an outlet that will not only grant me a stable career but will also provide a space for me to think intuitively and use my mind and knowledge in more creative and nuanced ways depending on my clients. I've been realizing that this intuition I've been feeling while massaging can be applied to my creative outlets with enough care and patience, and I plan on honing this creative side of me because I can't contain myself any longer lmao. 

It feels weird having thoughts like these as someone who is a self-proclaimed lover of art. I truly believe that all art is valid (besides AI...barf), but the second I get the itch to create I tell myself that it's a lie. Catch me DJing (may share some mixes who knows ;), drawing, and sewing more.