Am I Turning Into a Bitch?

Sooooo lately I have been so irritaded and so stressed at everything, I don't know what is playing with my mind if it's me questioning my sexuality, my job, my family or my future. 

Something is so wrong that I am even thinking about writing caitvi fanfics at ao3 to calm my mind down (just fluff, no angst). 

I don't know, I am so weird. I just wish to be fine, for things to work it out for me.

My job is not so hard, I ignore my family, my depression is under control rn and I don't want/never wanted to be in a relationship. 

Although I despise everyone around me, that's no motive for me to treat people badly, of course.

I still believe that humanity can come together and embrace difference, I just can't trust people anymore, I want to be very far from everyone.

I'm such a hypocrite.

Something is lacking on me here.