i am boring, and im not asking

 i consider myself to be quite boring, annoying if i insist, i have tons of reasons to think this about me, but im not here looking for any comfort (though i would like it), im here to expose myself.

 i see myself as a pushover, if someone does something i want to do it too, and that kind of makes my whole personality more bland, yknow? most stuff i do has already been done, im barely innovative, thats why i cant have any "creative ideas", because i learned things by copying others.

 i like to joke around too, but when people dont tell me the limits of joking, i get annoying, not because i want to, but because i cant tell when im being an asshole or not, i mean... sometimes i can perceive when im annoying someone and then i stop, but usually its too late.

 i fail, and i fail a lot, most people learn from trial and error, and i do too, but the difference is that i have to fail x10 more to learn 1/10 of what people do, i wish i could say "im sorry" everytime failed because thats truly how i feel, but i cant without being annoying! i hate having to pretend i just ignored my fails.

 i said too much "i" in this blog, (self-centric much? just kidding!) still, i do have my pros and cons, even if my cons outweights my pros by a lot, but i want to learn how to be better person, i hope to be able someday.