Mental Hospital Memories

{Omg first blog post?? Kinda nervous but i love to yap :)}

Canon event?

to no ones surprise, emo kid goes to psych-ward. shocker. I was sent there at the age of 15/16 i cant really remember but this was during covid soooo year 2021. i could easily talk about all the sucky stuff that happened but honestly i had so many "canon events" that i still think about rather than the bad stuff.

I want to start off with the biggest one which was watching the movie "but im a cheerleader" for the very first time. i've questioned my sexuality from a pretty young age, but seeing that movie especially in the ward out of all places really cleared it up for me. to this day i love that movie very deeply and it also started my love for Natasha Lyonne and RuPaul! after the movie was turned off because there was nudity lol, we just talked and the topic of queerness came up and i was asked if ive ever kissed a girl, which then i respond to with "no i have not". what followed was a girl offering my first girl kiss. guess what i said, nothing i was to shy to speak and just stuttered like a fool. Tomato tomato tomato. and i still have not changed 4 years later 👎 

you'd think i would know for sure after that about my sexuality but no, to this day it is still up for mystery that i just cover by saying bi. hopefully one day it'll be clearer. also if you haven't watched that movie, please do its so good.

Anyway thanks for reading my random 4 am yap <3333