I mean, it's understandable if people wish to avoid pain. Like, the existential kind of pain, or the pains in life like depression and envy... but I wish to expose myself to it.
Someone commented on my blog about the difference between my perspective of ignorance and someone else's.
7/12/2025
Do you notice how when we're born, things like breathing, thinking and being curious was not much of a conscious thing? we just... do it. That's why we don't remember a lot of things that happened at the ripe age of 1 - 5. When we are actually aware of what we are doing, the way we feel gets more intense. breathing and taking care of ourselves never became something we knew we were doing, it was just... natural. and the more we keep doing it, the harder it becomes.
if we were to be born, already conscious like the average teen/adult, then things like self care and constantly having to breathe every 7 seconds would stress us out and be hard. because it is something we are not used to, we panic and this prolonged feeling of helplessness can kill us
We are not used to the pains of life because it all just happens later on. It doesn't just become a natural feature that we learn to let it be in the background of the things around us, which is why it is hard to do things that feel "natural" to us. In a way, you do have to get used to it, but also know how to work with it. When we let helplessness get in the way of growth and adaptation, it can lead to our deaths.
I thought I had randomly come up in church. a solution? There are two ways.
“To succeed is to work hard.”
Well, like hobbies, they come new to us at first. and because of a loss of motivation and consistency, we can easily lose interest when it doesn't become something we need, like breathing and thinking. If there was a way to say that we could just repress some consciousness that intensifies the thoughts and feelings of "i don't want to do this"/"this is so hard" into "i NEED to do this"... would we be able to complete things more naturally and quickly?
If we constantly put ourselves in a mindset that we just... have to do something every day, to the point where it becomes natural, we will be able to do it better than before. but there is also a flaw to this, that if we get used to it it eventually does get... boring,, to the point we don't even take the time to appreciate it. that is until we actually reflect on it, like meditation
if we didn't think about the pains that came with something that is semi-optional(school, mental illness, socialization), perhaps we could proceed without any complaints <- Repression
Laozi(老子) was a man who also believed that ignorance is bliss, but there is a difference between the way he tries to clear out intelligence from getting us hurt. Instead of forcing things to be automatic, he would rather just "go with the flow" and instead of pressuring people to try and beat this barrier that held us from trying to know the truth, we should just let go and let things flow naturally. (it reminds me of the perceiving function in mbti, a "wing it" and "don't push yourself" thinking)
“Close your eyes to rare and desirable things (such as status or wealth), and you’ll reduce desire. Stop studying, reduce knowledge, and you’ll avoid the restlessness or arrogance that arises from excessive thought. Be content with what you have, and eventually you will reach wu wei.”
This is similar to Buddhism, right? Letting go of desires to achieve inner peace. The perspective of over evolving knowledge being as an optional factor, something you don't have to do. You just have to be content with your place in the universe. I admire this kind of perspective, but sometimes I'd rather do work first before allowing myself to rest. If i'm content with my place in the universe without achieving anything great, I wouldn't know if I really deserve that rest.
Intelligence as a flaw?
The mind is so self indulgent to comforts and a lack of pleasure because of a natural response to repress, ignore, or avoid pain. it's the first thing we've learned to do as a newborn. And because we were born with feelings before awareness, especially because we become "conscious" later on in life, we tend to respond with what we're used to: emotions.
But when the brain cannot come to terms that we have to face it, it starts to struggle. To be exposed to something we do not like doing, something we were taught to avoid. An overload of information and pain it has not been able to protect itself to becomes an alarm to our mental state. Intelligence was never supposed to be a flaw. It has it’s own bad and good sides, but it is mainly a gift. The reason why our own self awareness tends to loop us in a state of existential dread is because we tend to set limits, and not bother to push them
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