itz probably better to stop talking to people who hurt you

It feelz a bit silly for me to say this all publicly, but today i think i finally came to termz with the fact my childhood best friend of like multiple yearz never treated me right like ever. 

since i met this guy, he has kinda been.. nothing but mean in a way. constantly used to make me feel down + like if i said anything he'd leave, during those years, he was my only friend. considering it used to be insanely difficult for me to make new friendz, the area i was in used to barely have people my age and the fact my interestz back then were considered more weird. 

up until like, 2023 i was constantly being ghosted, made fun of, and just treated less like a person and more like a doll he would come and admire when i had use. funnily enough, i actually decided to try out social media and made friendz, and surprise surprise, when he ghosted me then i just... didnt care anymore. it no longer felt like he wanted to be my friend, and thatz fine. people drift, i just got tired of him pretending he still wanted to. 


we havent talked properly since like 2024, and while itz upsetting to see him treat people better, especially people who are similar to me, itz for the best. Should i have come to terms with it sooner? absolutely, but realizing now... jeez he was such a dick. 

in the end, the moral of this story is that sometimez you won't find your worth until you actually move past the people who continuously tell you that youre worth nothing. 


idk if this is a 'vent' so to say, but it feelz good to finally talk about it without worrying he will see it. 

thatz it for now, drink water, you are loved, see yall later.