wlw yuri kiss kiss fall in love situationship type shi

GUYS MY LOVE LIFE IS SO FUCKEDDD ISTGGG,

Ok so I've been super inactive for multiple reasons (my baaddd). Life has been hectic but a close friend recently had her birthday and her mum invited me, and some of her bestfriends to stay at a farmhouse for 2 nights.

ok so bear in mind, I've never met most of her friends. So I was super nervous cuz like, what if we don't get along, or I fuck some shit up and I get stuck awkwardly living with them?

But guys, when I tell u they are so chill. Their friend group is so peak istg I'm Lowk jealous. Some of them are actually so brain rotted, but I didn't find it annoying so it was funny.

Also we got to gossip about men that I will never meet in my life so that's always fun. One of them got their ears pierced too, lowk didn't kno u could just do that. (U can tell I have strict parents).

OK THIS IS WHAT YALL ACUALLY WANTED. So, yk how girls just cuddle up and flirt with eachother like that. It's completely normal guys stfu. One of her friends was low-k flirting w me differentlyyy. Like, yuri flirting.

First time I saw her I just thought she was so fine shite, like chat she's genuinely gorgeous. And like first I thought everything was normal. The first night nothing was rly happening. 

The next day was when things started escalating. She slowly started giving me more attention; telling me to tag along with her whenever I just didn't know what I should be doing. Carrying me in the pool, telling me to sit on her lap, playing with my hair, holding my hand, even the cuddles felt closer than they should. I felt like a puppy ngl.

I genuinely thought I was going insanee. Cuz like, what if I was reading it wrong I was just being delulu. I genuinely considered creating a bulletin from my phone asking if I was just going crazy. 

BUT I found out cuz she then started giving me pecks on the cheek and forehead. And one of her other friends looked at me, indicated at her and started fucking wriggling her eyebrows. istg I could hear her in my head going "OOoOoOo". Literal deer in headlights bro AGHHHH. 

So, we then had this awkward(?) moment. We were taking turns changing. She comes to me saying, "you want we change in (insert bedroom w bathroom that no one is using) ?" I tell her sure cuz how else u want me to respond. I help her take her swimsuit top off (AUGHUAUUGUHSUDHFA) Then realise I lowk forgot to bring my change of clothes. So I leave to go get that so she has time to change properly ykk? (lowk idk if I fucked up there). I come back, and she's mostly dressed. She then does the same for me, she leaves after I give her the top I was wearing (I had borrowed it from her) and I finish by the time she gets back. 

I GUENUENLY STARTED TWEAKING. My brain lowk: "This doesn't make sence, why'd she bring me here, to change?? No, that's normal right?? friend's change infront of eachother all the time thats completely normal. Yeah this isn't anything, this is a normal thing to do between friends. I mean we're women right? Like it's completely normal for 2 women to be changing in the same room together" I'm so in denial.

Anyways, after that. It gets OBVIOUS that something is going on. cuz her friends are all looking at us like "ru gonna fuck or what." I WAS SO FUCKING NERVOUS ISTGG.I get less chatty when I'm nervous so that definitely wasn't helpingg.

aghh then we CUDDLED cuddled on the bed. This girl sent me and her to go look for her lipbalm and when we came back she was like "Guys I sent u there so u could make out" HUHH!?! I get less chatty when I'm nervous so that definitely wasn't helping.

Then somehow everyone collectively decided to move beds so it was just me and her, arms and legs wrapped around each other. giving each other pecks. The lights were turned off so no one could see what we were doing unless you shined a torch directly at us.

AGHH this is when I started to freak the fuck out. the pecks slowly started getting closer to eachother's mouths. I could tell we were both hesitant but we got the kiss in after a solid minute. She then started adding tongue to it. 

AHAHDUHAHFIHUS. I Was panicking so HARDD cuz lowk I never kissed with tongue before, and I knew dam well it wasn't her first time so I was scared I was gonna do terriblee.

I did end up telling her, which she was shocked?? Is that genuinely a normal thing people do daily? But I just followed her lead and it was genuinely heavenn. aughghh the way our tongues touched, how did I not expect that to be amazing. I was still worried that I was doing it wrong but she tasted so good I forgot what I was doing.

ALSO no one talks about how hard it is to get a breath in. We had to stop a couple of times just to take a breather. But our lips barely stopped touching. UGHH I just know that I'm gonna feel so lonely in my bed after that. 

Idk if I was doing well but I also gave her a few (a lot) of kisses on her cheek and neck, where I could reach that didn't feel awkward. I wanted her to feel loved ykk?? Not just to make out. 

We were interrupted a couple of times cuz the others were watching Black Butler on the other bed. (is it good btw, I might watch it). I might have misheard her but at one point she said "ur cute when ur nervous"......UAGGHH i cannot stop freaking out about itt. 

I'm still worried if I did it right cuz it was my first time. But a close friend (the birthday girlie) came up to me after asking for some details. I couldn't even start talking lowk cuz where tf do I start. But she said she also talked to her and said that it was good. So I have some relive in that but she still might think I was ass. 

But yeahh we then proceeded to sleep on the same bed together. How I was was lowk abit unconfy cuz she had her back brace on. We did end up pulling away from eachother, she was probably sleeping, but I understood cuz it was getting hot and it's summer and no one really wants that ykk?? 

Trying to not get caught by my mum while also keeping public decency in mind was really annoying tho. After that night there were so many time where I just wanted to kiss her. And idk when I'm gonna see her cuz we literally only knew eachother for less than 3 days. I'm scared to text her cuz what if she doesn't want that and I seem too desperate.

Lets be real tho, I'm starting to become really desperate rn. I already have 2 situationships, do we really need another one?? idk what to do anymore. who tf do I lean onto. I'm so fucking desperate rn I'm cringing at myself. 

Anyways this took me a solid hour and a half to write. Hope u enjoy my love life cuz I dont know what to do with it. I'm gonna go get ready to go out with a bunch of skibidi ohio 12yrolds at rehersals. Plus I haven't eaten lunch yet.