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I feel so disconnected to everyone, I start telling myself that I don’t belong in this world. (We will leave this life after death. I’m basically a waiting soul)

I never get along in large groups and I hate myself for that. I even talked to a guy from my new class when we were both searching our classroom. But besides that, my new friend didn’t even say goodbye when I waited for her after class. She immediately ran to her other friend.

Not to be dramatic, but I feel like the worst person in this class. 

I can’t get along with the large girl group (tbh I’m afraid of even trying). 

I’m so bad at making friends, I feel like a weirdo. 

My best friend doesn’t feel like my best friend because I don’t feel like I can be myself when I’m with her, my second best friend found another friend, my “new friend” forgot me. 

I normally would say, fuck that, family is more important. But

My dad is a narcissist, my mom has her own problems (and my big brother), my little sister is literally 12. I love playing with her and talking but like she’s literally a kid I can’t talk to her about everything.

My aunt will marry soon. She was like my big sister. Unfortunately not anymore.

I feel like only having myself makes me a creep, but I love doing what I like to do. And I don’t want to live by myself, disconnected from the world.